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Monday, July 14, 2008
To all the people living in the world:
I seriously have no idea why on earth am i living for. Its full of stress and anxiety. I've always wanted to quit everything I've done, but its too late. This is definitely not anything to do with relationship problems, not like i have a girlfriend. This post is just gonna be my deprived month of July & August & September & October & November & December. I simply feel so goddamn shagged over many goddamn piece of things happening in school. Festival Winds is nothing, altho' it does affect my curriculum time and i may not be able to catch up due to the next one entire week rehearsal, going down to St. Andrew's Secondary School & St. Patrick's School. Its on the 1st August, Friday@ Victoria Concert Hall. I am definitely gna enjoy hell out of my time. When school works comes, its hell for me. E Math, A Math, Physics, Chemistry, are all covering me with chimalogies that i simply can't comprehend. why on earth do i have to study these man. did you realize that these are meant for left brainers to think, do. im a right brainer. im more on sports & arts, not maths&science that ends up making me look like einstein after a day or night's work. it truly ruins my free time. 30th July, violin exam, its killer king man. scales and arpeggios not done properly, especially G# Minor Harmonics, slurred and separated, entire book memorised. pieces are done, aural not done yet. tmr having violin lesson@7.30-9.30pm. all these are draining my energy man. and i think the principal shud do sth abt the upper secs timetable. it is totally ineffective learning in the afternoon especially maths for like 3 whole periods. and its continuous worksheets which means continuous homework i have to suffer with. no time to think of her. no time for God. no time for myself. no time for everything. i nid to breathe myself. fcuking man. really difficult to pull thru this year, its either a doom or die. doom is doing really badly, die is retain which i do not want. i was totally staring into blank space as soon as i TRIED to study. really exhausted lah plus the load waiting for me to do. and its like after band, i don't study on band days, cus im tired enough. can't wait for friday, everything is over. tests on tues&wed will be soon over. pray pray pray. help meeeeeeeeeeeee. i nid trigo. help and i nid help on binomial theorem and coordinate geometry. DIED. evan has ficken died.
im gna end up being a nerd mugging at home &
facing stuffs that are not my stuffs.
i dowan to be the next
"RuckingFetard"
Signing off,
Master Evan Phua Shi Yang
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the pact we made, girl (:
